Those 3 words.

I love you means that I accept you for the person you are, and that I do not wish to change you into someone else. It means that I do not expect you to be perfect. It means that I will love you and stand by you even through the worst of times. It means when you’re in a bad mood I won’t leave you and try to make you better. It means loving you through all your emotions not just when you’re fun to be with. It means that I could know your deepest secrets and not judge you for them. It means that I care enough to fight for what we have and that I love you enough not to let go. It means through all our fights, we will find a way to resolve it, and learn from it.

Relationships aren’t suppose to be easy.

They require work, compromise, dealing with someone else’s problems, and looking at someone else’s messes. A perfect relationship means doing those things well. Expect long nights of fights and talks, heart ache and times of questioning and understanding. It won’t be easy but only those who can stick through it survive the first step in relationships.

Yes, you.

There’s this particular guy. There’s something about him that makes this relationship worthwhile. He changed my life in so many different ways that I actually become more appreciative of him each day. He’s my best friend yet the love of my life at the same time. We don’t have the typical lovey dovey type of relationship but we have that relationship where we can tease each other yet we know when to act serious. Through all the fights and arguments, he finds a way to pull through and deal with my stupid outbursts. It’s always going to be you and I, baby. No matter how big the fight and no matter how small of a conversation we have, we’ll be together til the end of time. I love you, remember that. I know it seems like sometimes I take you for granted but trust me, I appreciate having you every second of my life. I honestly couldn’t have asked for anyone better.

I know it’s hard to prove, but it’s true. I can’t find a reason to actually give up. There has been more good things than bad things. I just want to let you know that I won’t be the one giving up. I don’t believe in the saying, ”If you love someone, let them go.” Because if you really did love them, you wouldn’t have let go. But if you hurt me, make me cry constantly, have no love for me, use me, then that’s a whole different story.

I always want to talk to you.

No matter what time it is, where I am, or what I’m doing. I’d drop whatever I’m doing just to have a conversation with you. Why? Simply because I love talking to you. I love how we talk about the most random topics. I love how you know how to keep a conversation going. I love how we lose track of time. A simple text or phone call from you can make me smile throughout the whole day. I know it sounds rather silly, but it’s true. You’re on my mind all the time.

Can you promise not to hurt me?

Can you look me in the eye and tell me that I’ll be the only one you love? Can you keep me together through my constant breakdowns? Can you promise not to leave me? I’ve been worn down before, I’m not the same. I know that if I get hurt again, I might not be able to get back up this time. I’m relying on you. Please don’t hurt me. I’m asking you to take care of me. Can you do that?

Baby, let's...

• Watch movies till we fall asleep.
• Cook together.
• Make cheesy relationship videos to make others jealous.
• Give each other piggy back rides. 
• Play at the playground.
• Prank call people.
• Introduce each others families.
• Embarrass each other in public. 
• Talk on the phone till we don’t know what we’re saying.
• Treat each other like its our last day on Earth.

To me the little things do matter. It really does. Like those good morning text messages, goodnight text messages, the little gifts, the random phone calls. They all freaking matter. Small things make changes too.

Sleep with me.

Hold on tight, close your eyes, and concentrate on my breathing. Memorize the particular spots where I kiss your sweet face. Show me that smile that I love so much. Quiet your mind and erase the traffic. Let me take you away and shift your focus. Allow me to erase your problems and ease your worries. Dream with me, and let me tease you with the sweet words that tickle your ears. Share childhood stories and dreams. Give me a taste of your aspirations and hopes. Take a breath. Get comfortable. Lay on my bare chest. Let me show you the depth of my love. Smell the fresh sheets. Feel the length of time slow. Exhale and silently drift away with me.

You're a keeper.

When you find that person that understands you, laughs at every joke you say not because it’s funny but because it’s stupid, makes fun of you for the stupidest things, makes you laugh and smile no matter the time of the day, picks fights with you just because their scared of losing you, and is there for you through everything that comes by in life… don’t let that person go. When this person can make you feel so loved and special, that’s when you know you’ve found a keeper, forever.

It would still be you.

You make me so happy. The happiest I’ve ever been, actually. When I first met you, I was scared of what I felt for you. But I’m really happy with how far we’ve come. For once, I feel like someone knows me inside and out and accepts me for all that I am. I always wanted something like this in my life but I didn’t know it’d happen out of nowhere. I’m so lucky to have met you. I hope you know that not a second goes by where I don’t think of you. You are what completes my life and makes it worth it.

Around you I can be myself and be okay with that. I don’t have to worry about my make up because you think I am just as beautiful without it. I don’t have to worry about my hair being just so because chances are you’ll mess it up on purpose. I don’t have to wear something “sexy” because to you I look good in anything I want to wear. I don’t have to worry about putting on a fake smile because you’ll see right through it. I don’t have to worry about saying the right thing because when I do say something wrong, you know exactly what I meant. I act different around you then I do around anyone else. But in a good way because I’m more me around you.

You make my heart beat faster each time I see you, and you give me butterflies when you kiss me. You are the one I want to hold for the rest of my life. In your arms is where I belong. You melt me every time you tell me about the future that you want to spend with me and how we could show the world the real meaning of being in love with the right person.

You know what I love the most about us? I love how comfortable we are with each other. I love how we endlessly pick on each other, but we never take the teasing to heart. I love how you laugh like a little boy. I absolutely adore how when I walk away from you when we are fighting, you try and stay mad, but… then you run after me. How slowly you kiss me. I love how I can call you anytime I need to and somehow you never cease to make me laugh. I love how you need me as much as I need you. I love how you’re crazy about me… and I’m crazy about you.

Dear future kids,

I hope you do not end up like me at all. I don’t want you to go through the things I’m going through. I want to GUIDE your life but not dictate it. I want you to try everything so you know what you and what you don’t like. I want to be there to listen. I want to be the one you’re excited to introduce your first boyfriend/girlfriend too. I will make mistakes but I can only hope that you learn from them. I just want you to remember that when the world turns its back on you, you just have to pick up the phone dial your mom and pop’s number and there we’ll be. Waiting for you with arms wide open. Always. I love you baby.



Your future Mommy <3

I just don’t know why!

There’s no one else to blame but myself. I don’t know why I just can’t let myself flow with my feelings and give in to circumstances. I tend to hold back. I don’t if it’s just me but I’ve been that pessimistic when it comes to falling in love. I’ve never felt this so called love ever, and I guess that’s the main reason why I can’t convince myself to give in and let things happen as they happen. I’m afraid to be broken, I’m afraid indeed. I’m afraid of being attached, too attached with this certain person that I might lose myself if ever I lose him. I’m that pessimistic, I just can’t seem to see the bright side of being in love. I can’t let myself fall for this person. I’m afraid to look cheap and easy to get, but what I’m totally afraid of is the fact that I know things won’t last forever.

I'm afraid.

I’m afraid that our relationship and the love that we currently share right now will soon turn into something similar in the past. I’m afraid that what we have will be like my past relationships that eventually fade away, just like the others. I’m afraid that we’ll soon get pass the infatuation phase and fall into the comfortable stage, where we’ll begin to take each other for granted and cease to make an effort. I’m afraid that someday, you’ll begin to lose interest in me, and the possibility of distance and barriers come between us. I don’t want to lose you, nor do I want this relationship to end up like the rest. I know this is all cliche and I’m sure you’ve heard it before, but everything I say is true. I want us to be different, to share in something neither of us have ever experienced before.

I want us to be infinite.

Love hurts when the person leaves you.

When you really love someone, you build your life around them. You’re connected with them in every way possible. You can fight against the whole world for them. But the day they tell you there breaking up… you feel 50 knives being put into your heart. The more you love someone the more pain they will give you at the end. A happily ever after is what we read in books and watch in movies, but that doesn’t happen in real life. Step out of your dreams and come into the real world. Everyone’s been through heartbreak and we all know what it feels like in different ways.

More than love?

I need to feel your lips pressed against mine and your arm streched across my body, keeping me safe. I need your fingers tangled up in my fingers and our legs twined together; with every inch of our skin touching. I need to hear you say you love me. I want to keep you safe too and stop you from ever hurting again. I never want you to cry a single tear drop or slice any part of your beautiful skin. All want is you to know I love you more than life and for you to be happy.