Yes, I've said it.

My boyfriend seriously spoils me so much and treats me so well it’s kind of ridiculous. — I don’t know how I got so lucky to have you in my life. Well, I’m not a “perfect girlfriend”. I’m a clingy and so annoying. I’m a dumbass, I always mess things up so bad. I’m a little too sensitive when it comes to certain things. I ruin your mood and day easily and make you so tired of everything. Despite all these things, you still fucking want me. You have been incredible in trying to understand my bullshit and how you can make things easier for me. I cannot begin to explain how much I appreciate you. Sometimes it feels like everything that could go wrong, has. It’s NEVER easy to comfort me, but somehow you’ve managed to do it in the end. I have you to thank for helping me through the hardest times, bit by bit, and reassuring me that you’ll always be there for me when I need you. I can’t promise I will always do good to you and never cause issues between us, but I can promise that I won’t stop trying for you as long as you try for me. I really just wanna be with you. Yes, I am not the perfect girlfriend. In fact, I might be one of the worst girlfriend ever. BUT I want to be with you. I like you. I want you. I need you. I love you. I love you and I LOVE YOU. I love you. with everything inside of me.

He really has no idea how much he means to me, and neither do any of you. So overall, all I can say is; Babe, I’m really really sorry. I’m scared to get too comfortable with our love and fully immerse myself in it because I’m so scared of you changing your mind and walking away. I know you’re probably getting tired of me. Just bear with me, please. I love you. I do, more than ever.

The one you are “meant to be” with does not break your heart.

They won’t lie to you. They won’t cheat on you. They won’t call you horrible names even in the midst of a bad fight. They won’t consider being with other people. They won’t put other things before you. They will prioritize your happiness. They will make time for you no matter how busy they are. They will never gave up on you. They will put in just as much effort as you do. They may make mistakes. They may mess up every now and then, they’re not perfect, but they’re going to try their best to be everything you deserve. This is who you should be with. This is who you deserve. No more crying over the guy or girl that hurt you so many times before. No more wasting chances on them when they least deserve it. Being with the wrong person only delays you meeting the right one. It delays you from experiencing true love and what it’s like to be with someone that’s absolutely perfect for you. Someone that brings out the best in you and makes you look forward to every tomorrow.

If I could do it all over again, I wouldn't change anything, because everything I am now is the result of the past things, whether good things or bad things that had happened. There are things I would like to change if I could, words I might take back. But from this side of the grave time only moves in one direction. I can change the future, but I can never change the past. And, everything I am now, is wonderful.

One fine day, sweetheart.

One day, It’s just going to be one of those lazy days where we wouldn't have to dress up, or “pretty” ourselves up because all we’re going to do is stay home. I could just throw on one of your big t-shirts and we’d cuddle all day in each other’s arms, play wrestling, holding hands and kissing. We’d pig out on a tub of ice cream and watch movies till the sun sets and we’d laugh foolishly about every little thing. I would be able to act totally childish and you’d return the mood by doing the same. Then we’d jump into bed and begin making out till it leads to something completely passionate. And to end it off, I want to be able to look into your eyes, all cuddled up in your arms and tell you that I LOVE YOU SO MUCH.